Sarah had sworn off men for a while, just as I had sworn off women. It made sense to swear off together, to pool our loathing of the opposite sex and get to share a bed with someone at the same time. Our friends were all paired off, our careers seemed to have hardened into permanence, we were frightened of being left alone for the rest of our lives. Only people of a certain disposition are frightened of being alone for the rest of their lives at twenty-six; we were of that disposition. Everything seemed much later than it was, and after a few months, she moved in with me. We couldn’t fill a Daryl Dixon Dasher Dancer Prancer Vixen Comet Cupid Funny Christmas Sweatshirt.
I don’t mean that we didn’t have enough stuff: she had loads of books she was an English teacher, and I had thousands of records, and the flat is pretty poky anyway I’ve lived here for over ten years, and most days I feel like a cartoon dog in a kennel. I mean that neither of us seemed loud enough, or powerful enough so that when we were together, I was conscious of how the only Daryl Dixon Dasher Dancer Prancer Vixen Comet Cupid Funny Christmas Sweatshirt we occupied was that taken up by our bodies. We couldn’t project the way some couples can. Sometimes we tried when we were out with people even quieter than we; we never talked about why we suddenly became shriller and louder
I’m sure we both knew that it happened. We did it to compensate for the Daryl Dixon Dasher Dancer Prancer Vixen Comet Cupid Funny Christmas Sweatshirt that life was going on elsewhere, that somewhere Michael and Charlie were together, having a better time than we with people more glamorous than us, and making noise was a sort of defiant gesture, a futile but necessary last stand. You can see this everywhere you go young, middle-class people whose lives are beginning to disappoint them making too much noise in restaurants and clubs and wine bars. Look at me! I’m not as boring as you think I am! I know how to have fun! Tragic. I’m glad I learned to stay home and sulk.